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it's been a while.

basically what ended up happening is that I got hired full time after being there for only two weeks!
i was totally thrilled and thankful. still am.
so now i'm still full-time at my job and most days i do enjoy it. this week has been a bit bland TBH.

currently listening to the pink flame mixtape by lil b.
and laying in bed waiting for the dishwasher to be done so i can make my food for tomorrow.

I'm on day 11(?) of my new RAW vegan lifestyle.
It's going great. earlier this week i was mad craving mexican food.
BUT tomorrow i'm going to a vegan restaurant with my yooper friend jeremy.
verrrrrry stoked. i think i will get the enchiladas to subside the cravings :)

so basically my diet has been:

a green smoothie in the morning (that i make the night before and bring to work)

either another smoothie or a mix of different fruits and veggies or a kale/spinach salad for lunch

for dinner i have made smoothies, date pudding concoction, but usually  just eat random fruits and veggies or a salad. always have a sweet tooth by the PM so i have dates, figs and nuts too. probably should try to stop eating those at night tho.

also made a raw burrito last week which was super yummy.

and whenever i'm hungry i eat. a banana or whatever. drink lots of water.
I feel good! been working out too so i dont get home until 730 or 830 depending on what bus i catch.

so after din tomorrow we are going to a garage rock show which shall be great
thankful to have the show-going pal i've been searching for.

now i'm listening to les thugs instead.
hoping to go to los globos on saturday to see sasha gohard.

we sold a lot of hats this past month!
but we haven't been paying any attn to AwkAuck and it shows.
just the lack on energy we put into it day to day is reflective of the amount of sales we make.
we put a lot of energy into AwkAuck for a while. and now we have been very low-key.
still doing custom orders and selling hats but i really want to do more. i just haven't taken that step yet.

this reality or ours lost a very influential man this week.
my relative jimmy or father jim.
he was part of my life since the day i was born.
so many great memories as a child visiting his house that was just a few hundred paces from our old cabin. blueberry pancakes, kool-aid, suckers and as I got older, coffee (maybe a splash of wine) and pizzelles.
it's so touching...really. my dad grew up around that house with jimmy's mother acting as an older figure in his life. we got to experience the same type of interaction.
he was such a gracious and loving man. witty and at peace with the world.
made a difference in so many lives.
my parents had a very special bond with him. i'm glad to have had this experience and i will pass on stories of such an adventurous and selfless man.

and now it's like, i've lost connection with this whole generation of people that i have always enjoyed so much. i honor and respect "the elderly". they have gone through so much and have lived. Jimmy wasn't elderly by any means. but he saw a whole different world than i can even imagine.
my great-grandparents were such gems as well. they were such neat and traditional people. i just dont know if i will encounter that again. i still have my grandma betty and my gpas wife nancy who are both great in their own ways. i also have a dear friend mary gaffney that i used to assist in MN with dinner parties or just random around-the-house chores. i miss her dearly. she is like a grandmother to me.

family is unbeatable. and i think it's taken me all of these deaths and 2 thousand miles distance to truly realize it.

so i tend to get very serious when i write. not sure why. love you! here are some recent pics

 oh ya i got to model these hideous shoes for our spring catalog!! lollllllll

this is me today @ work


















bye bye <3