It gets easier every time.
Very excited for this new direction!
Took the bus to the station today to avoid being sopping by the time I made it to the station.
I'm feeling rather janky...backpack still ripped, hair lookin a little rough, sandals way past their prime, dry skin, spiky legs, chipped nail polish, over grown eyebrows...keep your distance and I'll look just fine.
Definitely feel like I've gained a little weight being out of routine. I'm sure the excessive drinking and late-night chomp sesh's have something to do with it. So...im working on that...as usual. Such a challenge for some reason. Will overcome...
Decided drinking is the main source of unhappiness. Makes me feel like shit the next day, lazy, eat when/what I wouldn't, smoke, say stupid shit, waste my money. So where are the pros here?? Can't think of any.
Finally fit my skull plugs in my ears, they're pretty cute.
Spent the last 4-5 days working on my costume for infinite ocean, making kandi, watching sister wives, etc. costume turned out alright but I feel self conscious wearing it in front of other humans.
The downside of the blogger app is I can't select where the photos go.
I am entering this work place with a positive and open attitude. Cannot let my previous employment leave me jaded.
Planning on keeping it low key until Maddie and Kt come here so I can pinch all my pennies. The only exception is maybe going camping this wknd and infinite ocean next wknd. I would love to go somewhere up north with some big trees.
Ugh I feel large 2day. Run after work/ at sundown.
"What is necessary to change a person is to change her awareness of herself."
Something that drives me nuts is when people are condescending towards me. I'm sure im guilty of it as well. And there is a sense of gratification in superiority. But I see it as very unnecessary and will try to be more conscious of my reaction to it and if I act that way towards anyone else.
~Pce 2 tha h8rz~
PM
Work was good.
Idk why I'm so bad about hiding my emotions gahhh
Someday I will find my calling...
Proved myself right and got boba after work. Taro tastes like buttered popcorn. Also stopped at marukai Japanese market. Got some numz.
My boss is super nice and seems very genuine and humble. I think I will work better in this environment. They were blasting EDM which I'm guilty for getting into lately. Who am I?? Oh yeah, jaimr. It doesn't matter what I do because I do whateva i wunt.
Successfully avoided red meat at a BBQ on Sunday. Grilled watermelon ( it was weird) and had a piece of Chkn. Chomp
I miss my mommy and I miss my daddy.
"Never get comfortable" an artsist once told me. I agree all the way. But why am I always seeking comfort...wtf? Soon I will be able to embrace discomfort.
My hand tingles and my thumb is swollen.
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